The Art Of Subconscious Illusion song meaning

A living nightmare, asleep but still aware. ^Drugged, in a comatose state but still aware of everything around you yet unable to feel pain. The endless torture. The painless pleasure. ^Raped, cannot feel the pain, but it is giving the rapist pleasure. I grasp myself. Trying to regain control. ^Trying to command her body to move to get him to stop but she has no control. Completely helpless. I experience and learn. In another faction of my mind. ^Experiencing a new thing and trying to learn from the experience. So confused. But everything makes perfect sense. ^Confused about why he is doing this to her and why she deserved it, but she understands why people do this to other people. Can’t feel the pain. Emotional pain’s so much deadlier. ^She cant feel physical pain, but she is going through diffrent emotions that its hurting her becuase she doesnt know how she feels. Lost, you’ve just been raped. Pain. Your friends can’t help you. Why wont they help you? Another reality. This can’t be happening. Why is this happening? Who the fuck are you? Who the fuck. Are you? ^Her friends cant help her beucase it seems they are in a diffrent world and she is trapped in this time frame in this situation and nobody knows it is happening. She is questioning herself in the next second set of lines and this is something people usually do when they are panicked or scared. She is then asking the person who they are but she cannot speak. Trying hard to figure out what’s done. I scramble but now I run. The images in my head. All the problems that I’ve been fed. ^Back in her normal state, she runs away but the image of what happened keeps replaying in her mind. "...the problems ive been fed" could be saying the drug she was fed was feeding her problems but also it could be saying all the problems that have come from that event. Punching slowly my mind can’t change the speed. As my victims bleed. No matter what I do or how hard I try. I can’t use my abilities. Use my abilities. Art of Illusion. My razor sharp knife’s edge, pierces my victim’s body. But I can’t take their soul. Punching through jello, stabbing not killing. Disappointment. Discomfort. ^The rapists POV: He is mentally unstable and you can tell becuase he has no control over what he is doing "My mind can't change the speed" and "No matter what I do or how hard I try" "Art of illusion" shows it doesn't seem real to him. He hurts people, not to kill, but to cause them pain. This could be because he is looking for happiness and he thinks by hurting people he can find happiness but in the end he is just disappointed, or, he hurts people to get payback on the world becuase he has been badly treated and to cause people the pain he has been caused.